Dreams that reveal our heart’s condition, or self-condition dreams, are ones that show a person where they are at spiritually, or what they are dealing with spiritually, emotionally, and/or physically. These dreams also give us direction about what we need to do in order to overcome and/or to get back on track with God. The heart is a tricky thing. We all know that it is deceitful, and it will lie to us and say that everything is good, we’re okay, and there isn’t anything wrong with us. Jeremiah 17: 9 says, “The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked; who can know it?” The truth is, only GOD can know the depths of our heart and soul. That is why there are times – especially when you feel turmoil or unease around you – that we need to cry out to the LORD to give us revelation on what is going on internally. Verse 10 of the same scripture says: “I, the LORD, search the heart, I test the mind, Even to give every man according to his ways, according to the fruit of his doings.” He already knows us inside and out. All He is waiting on is for us to submit our ways to Him and allow Him to show us where we need to be healed and set free. Someone shared a dream with me the other day, which gives a perfect example of a self-disclosure dream. With their permission I’m going to share a piece of it with you in order to shed a little more light on how we can be healed through this type of dream.
Revelation In A Moment
This person had been dealing with a lot of depression and anger issues. She felt very overwhelmed with certain situations going on, and she shared that she was so frustrated with the whole situation, not even understanding where all of these feelings were coming from, and now it was affecting her family life. It was during one night of prayer that she began to cry out to the LORD for revelation on why they always felt so frustrated. That night they had a dream. In the dream she was living in her current home at her current age. In the dream she was wearing this long, white childish nightgown much like you might see on a little girl. As she is walking into the bathroom she reaches out and flicks the light switch. Nothing happened. In frustration she begins flicking the light switch on and off, but still nothing happens. Suddenly, in a fit of childish rage she begins to scream and beat the wall with her fist (something they had never done in reality). She is making so much noise that her father walks into the room. In a moment she realizes that her dad doesn’t live with her, and then she feels ashamed because now she has been caught having a tantrum, and she didn’t want anyone to see her acting that way. Her father looks at her and says, “Stop it! What do you think you’re doing?” She is now hanging her head down, chastised over her immature behavior. She is waiting for him to yell at her or punish her, but instead, he gently says “All you had to do is change the bulb.” Suddenly, he flicks on the switch and light floods the room. She looks at the wall and a huge mirror is now there. She looks at her image, and the woman before her was downcast, scraggly, dark, and depressed looking. She didn’t even recognize her own reflection. This image was so startling that she woke up immediately.
The Love of A Father
Now, let’s look at what the LORD was showing her. One, she is dealing with a current situation (remember this was in her current home and current age). Two, she went to the bathroom (a place of cleansing), and yet she found out that her connection to the power source was out (the light wouldn’t come on), or at least that was what she thought was going on. As she screams and beats the wall its as if another person takes over her body and emotions. She doesn’t even recognize who this other person is (and this is what she shared with me in reality when she was praying for frustration to go. She said that she often did not recognize herself when she felt frustrated and angry). The dad comes into the room (this part is spiritual because in reality her parents do not live with her. So, in this dream her father becomes like Father God, authority figure), and he says “What are you doing?” In other words, why are you letting this spirit of frustration take control of you? Why are you beating the wall and screaming about something that you can easily fix? All you have to do is replace the broken bulb.” Oh, the powerful love of a Father! She stands waiting on punishment because she is caught being “bad,” and yet, the gentle prodding of her father leads her to a deeper understanding of how to overcome this unruly spirit trying to take over her life. Her method of dealing with things was not working. In other words, the way that she is going about the problem is not solving anything. Frustration and anger are ruling in her life and causing the person that she thinks that she is to become someone that she doesn’t even recognize. In this self-condition dream, and remember she prayed for revelation, God was showing her that the issues she was dealing with looked complex and unbeatable, and yet the solution lies within her – change the bulb (the way that things are being done), and the results will bring more light and revelation, a deeper connection to the ‘power’ of the Father, and peace in the midst of turmoil. Yes, the problems feel heavy and painful, and unbearable at times, but they are also easily fixed when the Father is standing by your side. Only then can true healing come forth. Jeremiah 17: 14, “Heal me, O LORD, and I shall be healed; save me, and I shall be saved, for You are my praise.” You, alone, Oh God are the Mighty One of Israel, and the only one that can heal and set us free.
These self-disclosure dreams are not the feel good, happy when you wake up, kind of dreams. In fact, most of the time when you wake up you feel burdened by the reality of truth. The truth is hard to look at especially when it is about ourselves. My grandmother used to say that the truth is a hard pill to swallow, and no doubt about it, it hurts when you learn that there are major issues inside of you that need to be worked on. We all like to think we’ve got it all together, right? Our heart’s cry should be continuously, “Search me, Oh God, and know my heart; try me, and know my anxieties; and see if there is any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting” (Psalm 139: 23-24). David, in the Bible, understood that the way to stay close to God was to allow Him to search us, examine us, and prove (or test) our heart to see what was in the depths. Only then can we be truly free. He promises to perfect those things that concern me, worry me, or hold me bound (Psalm 138:8).
Dreams are definitely one avenue that the LORD can and will use to get down to the heart of the issue and reveal things that we often refuse to see in our waking life. Like I shared in an earlier blog, “Why Am I Dreaming of Teeth!!??”, it took the revelation of the LORD to show me that “I” (my eye-tooth fell out in the dream) was in the way of getting issues solved. Until I removed myself then nothing would change. It was a dream of self-disclosure that helped me not only solve an issue I was dealing with, but I was able to find peace in the midst of turmoil, and that is what my heart desires – to have peace and joy in the place of turmoil and anxiety. Life is complicated enough without us trying to make things any harder. I want to “change” that bulb – like my friend’s dream- when things get frustrating and stop beating the wall out of senseless frustration. How about you? Be blessed and keep dreaming.