A while back I was going through a difficult season in my life. We have all been there, right? You know, when the things around you that are so comfortable and secure are now full of instability and insecurity? Anyway, I was seeking the Lord for an answer of peace during this storm. My heart and flesh was rebelling against the imminent change that was taking place. In my heart I knew that He was still King and would make things right, but in my flesh I was fighting with the changes that were all around me. How many of you know that when we wrestle in the flesh our first reaction to a situation can be anger? The Bible tells us that the spirit and the flesh war with one another constantly. My initial reaction was to let the flesh have its way. I became angry because my comfort zone was pulled from beneath me. It wasn’t the right response, but I’m human. I realized immediately that my anger was not going to move the heart of God. I needed a direct revelation just from Him on what was going on, and how He wanted me to deal with things. Immediately, I had a dream. In the dream I am in a cafeteria, and I realize that someone has stolen my purse. I am so upset because I know that I have $500 dollars in there, but I don’t want anyone else to know this. So, I start searching and having others search, but I tell everyone that there is only $250 dollars in the purse. When I woke up I thought, “I know this is a dream from the Lord, but what in the world does it mean?” I wrote it down and put it aside.
One afternoon, a few days after the dream, I was sitting on the front porch reading the scriptures and just seeking His face and wisdom when I came across the scripture in Daniel. I had read it many times before, but on this particular day it seemed to jump off the page at me. “Blessed be the name of God forever and ever, For wisdom and might are His. And He changes the times and the seasons; He removes kings and raises up kings; He gives wisdom to the wise and knowledge to those who have understanding. He reveals deep and secret things: He knows what is in the darkness and light dwells with Him.” (Dan. 2:20-22). It says that He changes the times and seasons. I felt that change happening around me spiritually. I knew that things must shift, and I had felt it for such a long time, but physically and emotionally I was resistant. What about the part that says HE raises kings and removes kings? Yes, He can change a situation in a moment. He can raise a new person up for a position, but He also can remove someone. Wisdom is the key, and understanding is precious in order to see the deep and hidden, secret things, of the LORD, and that was my heart’s desire.
As I was reading this scripture, I suddenly had a flash back of the dream. From my time studying dreams over many years, I knew that most of the time a purse represents our identity. It holds our ID, money, essentials, etc. in reality; therefore, in a dream it becomes our “identity.” A cafeteria is a place where we are fed from a multitude of options. We have a choice in what we eat, and it is also a group setting meaning that others are affected by our choices. Then I looked up 250 and 500 because numbers are extremely significant, and these stood out forcefully within my dream. The number 250 means conflict with change never experienced before that may feel chaotic. Wow! God never ceases to amaze me. The change that was occurring in the natural was difficult, and I certainly had been dealing with a lot of conflict. The number 500 means initiating change in a way that has never happened before; making change happen. Again, I was blown away. Both numbers correlated with one another and spoke to the exact season I found myself in. Then I heard the LORD say, “But look at the wording.” So, I stopped for a minute and studied the differences. 250 = Conflict with change, but 500 = initiating change and making it happen. In the dream, I was so focused on the 250, you see? When in reality I was in possession of the 500. I was so wrapped up in the conflict surrounding the natural changes that I was forgetting that the LORD has given me the authority and ability to initiate change on my own, in my own life and in my own self. Conflict or initiate? Both numbers meant change, but it was all in the perspective of how I viewed the situation. Conflict is easier, let me tell you, but it is also very unhealthy. In fact, most people choose conflict because it seems easier, it allows us to make choices (such as moving ahead or staying stagnant), and it fuels the anger that predominates this emotion.
The LORD said again, “Conflict or Initiate?” I saw in that moment that I was able to initiate the changes with HIM by my side. Not in my own power, but only through HIM could this be made possible. Zechariah 4:6 says (the word of the Lord to Zerubbabel) “Not by might nor by power, but by MY spirit, says the Lord.” I don’t have to struggle when change happens. Change means that I am progressing forward, and new things are on the horizon. “Behold, the former tings have come to pass and new things I declare; Before they spring forth I tell you of them” (Isaiah 42:9). He promises to give me wisdom and revelation as long as I stay grounded and rooted in HIM. He promises that He will lead, guide, and direct me: “I will instruct you and teach in the way you should go; I will guide you with MY eye” (Ps. 32:8). No matter what you dream or hear in a prophetic utterance, HIS Word stands forever. Find those promises in His Holy scripture and stand on them because He is not a God who can lie. His promises will not return to HIM void. If the Word says it then I can lay hold of that promise and it becomes the nourishment for my soul.
As I reflected on the dream and all the changes taking place, I felt a peace overwhelm me. I knew then that complacency is our enemy. It allows us to become stagnant and comfortable. To affect a lot of people my identity has to be tied to initiation and being a “change maker”. The Lord is so gracious and merciful. He says that He will answer when we call, and His word is true. When I cried out to HIM for revelation, He sent His Word and healed me. I encourage you today: if you are going through a difficult season and feel unsure about the changes taking place then seek His answer. Jobs, home life, ministry, friendships all are subject to movement and shifting, and we should desire progression instead of fearing it. Whether He speaks to you in a dream, a prophetic utterance, or just at home through His word, allow Him to open your revelation and understanding and receive the Word with a joyful heart. Set aside all thoughts of conflict or anger and follow Him as He leads you into new realms. Sometimes, it is hard, I know because I’ve been there, but I remind myself daily that my mind must be renewed. It is the only way to stop the flesh from rising up and trying to take over. The Word says, “And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you at prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God” (Romans 12:2). Transformed is the key word here. Be transformed and renewed. this indicates that something is moving and shifting – not staying the same. Only then can we prove (test and prove by practice in everyday life) what is the good and acceptable and perfect will of God. I pray that this is your heart’s desire – to know His will and way more and more everyday. Don’t let the fear of change, the desire to dwell in conflict, steal your joy and peace of mind. Be renewed daily in Him, and He will lead, guide, and direct you. Amen. Be blessed and keep dreaming!